Something to celebrate today. It all began yesterday night after my extended working hours followed by dinner followed by watching the Rooney saga on TV (thank God he didn't leave MANU) it was around 1 in the night (5:30 in India). So naturally ended up having an extended night out and wished my parents around 3AM.
Now why is this so important, I have never been quite good (dismal might be the right word) in remembering birthdays and anniversaries. So for a change wishing them was quite nice in the end. Now I must tell you that the emotional quotient of my parents and sisters are like this flower (don't remember the name) that blossoms once every 12 years or so. I am not implying that they aren't emotional its just that they don't show it outwardly. For example I gave a suprise visit on my mum's birthday earlier this year. Around midnight when I did appear before her she calmly let me inside the house and asked me if I had dinner :-) Now what made her think that I could starve until midnight without having dinner I never know ? Anyway she quietly confided that she was indeed very very happy and I kind of understood it..that's how everything is in my house:measured and controlled.
Now to today's story, I gave a call spoke to my ma first wished her and then to pa, incidentally it was his birthday too ! I suggested dad that he take mum out somewhere today other than a temple of course coz I wouldn't be surprised if dad would have paid a quick visit already.
At the end just spoke to ma, I kind of always do, I need to speak to her at the end (gives me that happy ever after feeling) and this is what she spoke as we signed off and I quote "Happy you called and make sure you have your breakfast" :) NOW WHAT WILL THE WORLD DO WITHOUT A MOTHER ?
congrats ma and pa for 30+ years of marriage. I am not that good with showing my emotions either..anyways...proud to have parents like you and thanks for all the wonderful gifts life has brought us through you and your values.
Love U..
- Sridhar Ramakrishnan
- About me? Thinking about it, describing yourself is such a difficult task and I am puzzled how some guys out there do it so seamlessly. I am what you can call a “Yours Ordinary Programmer” and come from an already overwhelming group of people calling themselves the “IT Guys". So here goes my space mostly with things I don't know why I wrote in the first place. For those who feel it is non-sense thanks for your patience and for those who feel its quite good thanks for sticking your neck out "Be the change you want to see" Cya, Sri
Friday, 22 October 2010
Sunday, 17 October 2010
24 Hours !!
So what would I do if I was told that after today the most important thing to me and my life is unattainable for the rest of my life. I guess after the initial (albeit usual) human emotions like anger, pity, sympathy, empathy I kind of came to a logical and definite conclusion on how I would react. I will live out that 24 hours as if there was no tomorrow. That's how life is, you don't get what you want coz if it does, then the whole game becomes too boring.
So I guess we got to get over it and move on with our life but then is that so simple ? Is it really easy to pretend nothing ever happened and that the one thing you most wanted in life is now not yours forever, may be it is !!
A day, again, passes into oblivion,
So did a month and so did a year,
All those old times I wish to forget,
Yet so colourful and stronger they get.
What use is all these pictures in my mind ?
When all I want is to tear them apart.
I see the boulevard lined by my memories,
On it, I walk, every day every night,
Not laughing, not crying, just like a ghost,
Wanting to forget what I cherish the most.
Then comes a break of dawn,
Bringing with it the wisdom that shone,
Memories are there not to be forgotten,
As I see how stronger I have gotten,
For each one have a story to tell,
To remind me of my courage - when I fell.
Now I want to frame the pictures in my mind,
But into the future I look and smile!
I venture out, for a new light and shade,
Radiance of this dawn, so soon begins to fade,
As the shades get dark so do my thoughts,
The lonely nights forever break my might,
The tears and smile come back to haunt,
So hard to grasp the will of the world,
The craving, the pain and the sadness of 'today',
Outlives the happiness and smile of 'yesterday',
I never knew then and never will I now,
What you were to me, and I to you,
Places too far in search of a wish I go,
The one wish that is, never to dream,
Since all my dreams lead to you,
Staring into your eyes I want to ask,
Why did the you and the me,
Never did ever become the "us".
My heart everyday told me something,
A happy ever after kind of a story,
I hold your hand and time stands frozen,
Just as I begin to dream the years of love,
There you were with that fatal smile,
Waiting to tell me an unexpected Goodbye,
Whose making was it, I never will know,
You were so close but yet miles apart,
I never cried and I never will,
Your memories and time may forever haunt,
But my heart shall not explode for a while,
For I know a truth that shall always be true,
In all the lands far and wide,
There is none before and none from now,
Who can think of you the way I do.
PS: The second stanza was written by my pal in response to my first stanza. My response in the third !
So I guess we got to get over it and move on with our life but then is that so simple ? Is it really easy to pretend nothing ever happened and that the one thing you most wanted in life is now not yours forever, may be it is !!
A day, again, passes into oblivion,
So did a month and so did a year,
All those old times I wish to forget,
Yet so colourful and stronger they get.
What use is all these pictures in my mind ?
When all I want is to tear them apart.
I see the boulevard lined by my memories,
On it, I walk, every day every night,
Not laughing, not crying, just like a ghost,
Wanting to forget what I cherish the most.
Then comes a break of dawn,
Bringing with it the wisdom that shone,
Memories are there not to be forgotten,
As I see how stronger I have gotten,
For each one have a story to tell,
To remind me of my courage - when I fell.
Now I want to frame the pictures in my mind,
But into the future I look and smile!
I venture out, for a new light and shade,
Radiance of this dawn, so soon begins to fade,
As the shades get dark so do my thoughts,
The lonely nights forever break my might,
The tears and smile come back to haunt,
So hard to grasp the will of the world,
The craving, the pain and the sadness of 'today',
Outlives the happiness and smile of 'yesterday',
I never knew then and never will I now,
What you were to me, and I to you,
Places too far in search of a wish I go,
The one wish that is, never to dream,
Since all my dreams lead to you,
Staring into your eyes I want to ask,
Why did the you and the me,
Never did ever become the "us".
My heart everyday told me something,
A happy ever after kind of a story,
I hold your hand and time stands frozen,
Just as I begin to dream the years of love,
There you were with that fatal smile,
Waiting to tell me an unexpected Goodbye,
Whose making was it, I never will know,
You were so close but yet miles apart,
I never cried and I never will,
Your memories and time may forever haunt,
But my heart shall not explode for a while,
For I know a truth that shall always be true,
In all the lands far and wide,
There is none before and none from now,
Who can think of you the way I do.
PS: The second stanza was written by my pal in response to my first stanza. My response in the third !
Friday, 15 October 2010
Keeping it simple !
One thing that amazes me about man is his insatiable capacity to make his life complex. Giving it a more thought I guess its not our fault really since this attitude was something of a gift presented down one generation after the other. If only Eve would have just resisted from having that one little apple, life would have been so simple, no pains no gains everyone living happily ever after, but then she had to eat it and the rest is history.
We are so inadept at keeping our lives simple sometimes I get embrassed to hear evolutionists calling man the most developed of living creatures, but then who am I to question the rationale of grey haired, moon glassed spectacled science professors in the cosy realms of their lab and so far from reality.
From the very basic to the most inconsequential the obsession to get it "socially right" is so high that after a while our mind becomes a vending machine churning out standard responses to keep us in the good books. Is it so important to be in good terms with everyone ? After all who are these everyone friends, family, colleagues but then all these relationships come with an expiry date isn't it ?
Friends..until you are useful to each other
Family..until you are yourself
colleagues..until you leave the present job
Then why so much of effort to be right all the time. Why can't we just look at somebody in the face and tell what we think of them ? Or why not the guts to go to your boss and tell what's wrong with him or the company ? or why not go to your friend and tell what exactly you think of him.
It can make life so easy ain't it ? For one you don't have to keep up any expectations since there will be nothing expected out of you in the first place. And then you can go about your life more selfishly than ever before. Being openly self-centered is still keeping things simple ! But then what is life without a little bit of cat and mouse and lot of spice ?
I hear my mobile ringing, oh it's this guy who calls me only when he wants anything from me, but again I can't get pissed off and speak politely (keeping it simple yeah :-))
We are so inadept at keeping our lives simple sometimes I get embrassed to hear evolutionists calling man the most developed of living creatures, but then who am I to question the rationale of grey haired, moon glassed spectacled science professors in the cosy realms of their lab and so far from reality.
From the very basic to the most inconsequential the obsession to get it "socially right" is so high that after a while our mind becomes a vending machine churning out standard responses to keep us in the good books. Is it so important to be in good terms with everyone ? After all who are these everyone friends, family, colleagues but then all these relationships come with an expiry date isn't it ?
Friends..until you are useful to each other
Family..until you are yourself
colleagues..until you leave the present job
Then why so much of effort to be right all the time. Why can't we just look at somebody in the face and tell what we think of them ? Or why not the guts to go to your boss and tell what's wrong with him or the company ? or why not go to your friend and tell what exactly you think of him.
It can make life so easy ain't it ? For one you don't have to keep up any expectations since there will be nothing expected out of you in the first place. And then you can go about your life more selfishly than ever before. Being openly self-centered is still keeping things simple ! But then what is life without a little bit of cat and mouse and lot of spice ?
I hear my mobile ringing, oh it's this guy who calls me only when he wants anything from me, but again I can't get pissed off and speak politely (keeping it simple yeah :-))
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